Humpty Dumpty

Can we put each other back together again?
Oh, I forgot I was the only one broken
The call terminated, I guess I'll press resend
Is it sad that I hold a phone call as a sign of a love token?
I don't know how you do it, but to your will I bend
Over and over and Over
But then
You would think I would learn, but no words spoken
I'm usually an angry person, but for you no emotion
My knees shake, my stomach churns, my heart sinks
Ha, I still have a heart, oh to think...
How much have I put this heart through?
Tormented by love, but I thought this was different; specifically, you
I knew
That you had a different mindset than the rest
I figured it was what I needed, you passed the first test
Her or me?
The one that sets your mind free,
Or the one that is needy
You chose the latter, I really don't know why
At first, you seemed perfect in my minds eye
But love is blind, apparently
And now I realize I will never be content being me
Hyper-psycho-active, is it a word?
Maybe, but even if i screamed it you would have never heard
I stifle my arguments,
I writhe
Inside
Within no one to confide
I can't believe you do this to me
Freely
Out of your own will
But I guess that's what trust will get you.
Time to take this pill.

What do i do?

Haven't I been good to you?
Haven't I changed my life for you?
What do you do in return?
How much effort do I ask of you, in reality?
Not so much.
A phone call.
Just a few, let me know you're thinking of me.
Let me know you're there.
In reality, I thought that we could never be
You, me
We
Come from a different cloth
You pretend to be what you want, I grew out of that
I've lost my inner child apparently, you have no inner adult
Responsibility
Not one of your key attributes
Stability
Not one of mine
Can we put each other back together again?
Oh, I forgot I was the only one broken.

Attention.

I'm insecure.
why else would i pour out my emotions
hoping that someone would want to randomly read
a nameless person's thoughts and inner struggles
a solitary online publication
only published when she feels like she has time
because maybe she does have a life
and doesn't crave attention
as much as this would seem to suggest
I'm insecure.